the first day

the first day is always the hardest
that's when you truly feel starving
and truly feel horrible
after that its easy
then your body gets used to the constant starvation
and its easy


today was the first time i ate in one month. Eating felt really.......... un-natural. it made me feel hungry again. it. was. hell. my friend forced me to eat, i didn't want to but i didn't have a choice really. i don't think he'll stop trying to make me eat things but i wish he would because its always harder.